السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ
Alhamdulillah masih diberi peluang untuk menconteng kat blog usang nie + comot di tahun 2014.. feeling great + awesome coz nie my first entry for diz Tahun Kuda (2014)... 2013 banyak perkara + pengalaman + memori yg terlalu banyak warna yg memberi rasa yg berbeza... but its good for me to be more matured + can smile to face next story of my life...
Okay entry kali nie jus mau jawab satu persoalan yang sue rasa people yg sue jumpa + kenal akan tny & teringin mau tny... TRAVEL? ALONE?
Actually for this 2 month sue keep thinking... mcm mana mau explain? how? how? aigoo... since balik cuti sabah ari tue for 1 month sue keep asking myself... weird ka aku? sebab bukan sekali orang tanya tp dha byk kali + with different orang...
That time maybe sue jwb persoalan sahabat tue but the answer actually the only one idea that suddenly fly to my head... haha... susah mau explain bha... khakha... because setiap kali orang yg tanya sue... sue akan jwb apa yag lalu kat otak sue... klu sue bagi tahu panjang lebar pulak mesti dlm hati orang tue *none of my business khaka... so better change to other topic dr waste time dgr story sue...
Itulah SUHAILA ROSLEY... khakha.. maafkan sy ye sahabat...
perjalanan hidup orang berbeza... ALLAH bagi rasa + jalan hidup yg berbeza... itu satu kebetulan klu org yg kita jumpa ada jln hidup yg sama but ingat x semua yg sama...
sebenarnya bukan mudah unk tanam keberanian tue dalam diri ini... since i'm 15 dha start kluar dr kepompong yg tersangat2 lah selesa.. kepompong yg selamat even mau keluar mau pergi mana2 pon my daddy yg akan hantar.. nothing to worry.. semua da ada + lengkap.. me juz do my task.. study study and study... sepanjang dalam kepompong tue lah perwatakan dibentuk... keperibadian di bentuk dgn sgt teliti unk persedian pd masa akan datang... thanks a lot to my lovely parents... mom & daddy... kepompong yang mom & daddy sediakan mmg awesome... but perancangan daddy mmg jauh... dgn meyediakan kepompong mmg tdk cukup unk anak nya unk kenal apa itu dunia... then me dihantar unk masuk ke sekolah yg luar dr daerah hometown kami...
bila masa itu tiba mmg x ada kata yg dpt tell the world apa yg sue rasa... takut + culture shock + alone... start the story of my life dgn keluar daerah.. TAWAU...alhamdulillah selama 2 years dpt hadapi semua tue and rasa berani tue rasanya boleh lah cukup unk my next journey yg akan lagi jauh dr family + hometown... ALLAH bg peluang berapa bulan jer unk msk blk kat kepompong tue... then alhamdulillah di bg peluang fly to tempat baru unk setahun... sebuah tempat yang mengukir byk rasa + pengalaman... LABUAN
then after that diberi peluang ke tempat lain... laut cina selatan yg memisahkan sue dgn family.. MELAKA
bukan mudah unk hadapi semua nie... but sepanjang perjalanan sue... sue selalu ingat even sue sendiri but ALLAH is always with me... no matter how far perjalanan tue kena yakin yang ALLAH sentiasa ada dengan kita... terima kasih Ya Allah...
mana ada seorang ibu yang x risau kan anak nya... but normal lah naluri ibu kan... mak adalah org yg plg risau... pesanan before boarding.. " duduk tempat yg ramai org " " sembang dgn mak cik yg ada situ mgkn sama destinasi " plus blah2.. khakha... thats my mom... best kan... thanks mom... khikhi... my daddy... klu sue first time wat benda baru... dia akan keep call... ari tue first time naik bas seorang ke LCCT... daddy keep call.. actually naik bas dha call.. after one hour dia call lg.. and me still dlm bas... blom smpi LCCT... that my daddy... and same thing happen when me first time blk sabah dr KLIA... daddy akan keep give instruction kena pegi mana.. naik floor mana...then pegi mana... but that thing wat sue pening... nasib ada member yg dpt bantu.. pa guna ada teknologi + awesome member kan...
itulah diri sue.. try something new sendiri.. smua kena independent dan terbiasa independent... even my mom always hope yang setiap perjalanan sue ada seorang kawan yg dpt teman sue... but me selalu ingatkan my mom... mak semua member sue pon akan alami bnd yg sama... kami dpt universiti yg berbeza and mmg impossible dpt blk sama2 sbb different hari cuti... and bila sue dha beli tiket flight... mak akan sebut semua nama member sue... tny samaada sue satu flight dgn drg... and keep asking "si itu x blk cuti ka" " si ini hbs exam bila" ... sgt detail...
so semua sendiri... when people ask me... me still can smile answer their question... but in fact.. pa yg sue hadapi ssh unk diucap... rasa takut dgn hujan + gelap... dpt x byg kan takut nya bila dlm flight yg kena tempuh awan tebal + hujan lah... that time me kena berlawan dgn rasa takut tue sendiri... meet people yg kita x kenal yg lebih besar dr kita dgn bahasa yg kita x fhm... huh... too many situation yg kena face it by my self... bnyk sgt yg diri ini takut kan... but me kena juga face it kan... haha itu lah yg sue rasa selama 6 tahun perjalanan sendiri... and that why nothing to feel awkward when sue dha terbiasa move sendiri.. more freedom... x terikat... just me... simple life.. that it... but don't think me tak bergaul dgn org plak... haha... mcm yg sue kata kita ada different path of life... sue pon spend time bercuti dgn member.. hang out ramai2... that the most awesome day... kita enjoy dgn member... doing gila2 things... khakha.. itu one of memory yg perlu ada... but smua itu happen when smua member ada cuti yg sama and dpt have fun sama2....
but maybe one day ALLAH akan send one person yg keep beside me... yg akan jd pelindung + teman berbual + *treat me like a princess hahha.. suhaila stop dreaming.. but one day... and me pon x sure bila? siapa? and one special question " ada ke? " *sentap ... khakha...
sue x kisah pon semua tue... lg pon sue dha biasa move seorang.. but when that day happen... maybe hard for me coz itu satu situation yg totally different with my lifestyle.. haha... maybe that one of my another life story...
actually byk lg plan sue nak wat... and tersgt2 ambik masa yg lama... luar dr daerah sudah... dalam malaysia sudah.. teringin plak luar dr Malaysia... klu otak still bole adapt and x tepu... hikhik... kita plan... tp semua tue perlu usaha + minat + yg plg penting semua nie ALLAH yg akan tentukan... dah bg tau my mom & daddy klu ada rezeki & berpeluang maybe sue akan pergi... but it hard for my mom... coz too far + me akan sendiri... hopefully peluang ke sana ada unk diri ini... AMIN... ok itu jer unk entry kali nie...
